Wats Love?

Could not sleep since 3.30am. Was reading up on some lady and her pre marriage situation. I would like to encourage all married and in RS women to stay strong. I know it is easy to say than to be done. Just remember love life and stay strong as long as possible. Oh! Also to men who are facing such issue in life too.

Couples like these should know themselves much better than anyone. It takes to hand to clap. Isnt it?

It is really not easy. Really.

Having to read, encounter, experiences and hear from couples that are facing such issues are creating a invisible phobia and fear from within me.

Its just confusing. Shall end it here.
Loves, wena

The First Step to Our Future

Getting our flat on 14.12.12

Probably, it is still early to apply for a flat in a mature town estate. But this is what we intended, planned and best of all when there is such opportunities available for us at that moment. Secondly, I am still schooling and unemployed, others/society might think that I/ we are not capable to afford a flat now. True but like i saw we intended and planned accordingly. I strongly believe that I could afford that after 5 years of employment. Not trying to be ambitious but indeed I am actually because i believe I/we could do this together. Thank you friends, especially E, for your support and over-whelming joy for me! Likewise, our parents.. I think they are quite excited for it as well. For me at least because my mum seems to be or even sound excited to me.

This is our first application and got quite a good queue number being a first-timer and first application. So by our appointment date, there are several good unit left. We were still deciding which unit to book hrs before our appointment by flipping coin. HAHA! Of course we did break down to a few best location/unit before we start to hesitate on which one. Finally, we got our first ideal choice! ^^

So we have chosen to opt out for the OCS (Optional Component Scheme) as we like to have it our own design and enjoy our place after a long day of work. I do believe with a good design before moving in = long term investment. This project will take slightly longer than other projects, which means about 5-6 or < years, and so marriage?. I intend to have a simple ROM session and no wedding banquet at all. If otherwise, at most sending family, relatives and close friends some pastries. =)

UNLESS let me strike lottery! HAHAHAHA! Then everyone will be invited for that 'dinner' or so.

In this era, it is not easy to get married, buy flat or even having a child. Its not about the notion of everyone love kids and so assuming they will take care of your kids. It is not that simple really. Handling a family, carrer and child(ren) at once is really not easy. 

Before my selection, I have been pondering over this issue a lot a lot of time. How, why, when , where and what. I am still telling myself if I am ready for it. Like really ready and so I sprouted this sentence out to A. As a straight and outspoken guy, he just shot me down with his words and said then lets just end it. Come on lah~ You are moving out of the point. =.= As for me, I kept mum and went to bed. LOL! So then days past and I have had made that decision.

I told him "Dear... from today onwards we have to cling on to each other and not let go".

He just smile and said are you alright? In other words "you siao ar?"

*Roll eyes*

Had a good Beach rd scissor cut curry rice before our appointment that day. ^^

Its not very convenient to get that but for good food its all worth it. I thought this was not very very awesome as compared to the one i ate before (which i cant remember where it was). Nevertheless, this was still good. =D

So now, I am awaiting for 2013. Hope everything is good too next year.

I can feel that my luck is coming back already. ^^

Loves, wena

A little bit on the thirteen

Emotions overwhelming these nights and haven been sleeping well. I shall say. Waking up every hour and having nightmare. Thinking of bad dreams, I think i didnt have had any dreams for the past few years.

Preparing myself for tml evening. Will talk about it here again.

Loves, wena

12.12.12

Just a very special date to pen down my emotions right here at this moment.

Spend my evening with my favourite person, E, watching "life of pi" and having astons for dinner on a raining night. I really felt relieved and happy and free ever since i finished school. I am literally slacking everyday since 3 dec (my last paper) at home catching up all dramas and thinking about my life and stalking others. It is really amusing and interesting to see how people behave.

Something to really think about relationship, determination in life as well as the notion of "never give up". But do religious comes into play in life? Don know why, somehow I could feel that devastation emotions when Pi was crying over the tiger not "turing around and look/wait for him". 

Watever it is, I am glad that i had spent this gorgeous date with my bff. ^^

I am anxious and nervous for 14/12.

Excited for 19/12 a date with my gfs again! =D

Loves, wena

Some little things Happens

Changes
First of all, I am really glad that I have officially completed my bachelor degree even though i am not going for honors. I am glad that I have made it through these 3 2.5 years in NUS. My grades are really bad that I don even have the courage to share it here. HAHA! Quite embarrassing honestly. Probably, my friends are right that im not in the right course. That is why i cant blossom with the right environment, right water, right soil and the right amount of sunlight. A quote from one of my sociology tutor. Nevertheless, I still SURVIVE!! =DD

Having the opportunity to study Arts and Social Science in NUS and ended up majoring in Sociology, this journey is really an eye-opener and experiencing one for me. I am super glad that I met this AWESOMELY nice girl, Grace, who had embraced me, encouraged me (all the time) and the only determination for me to look forward coming to school and meet her up. We studied, laughed, stressed, sweated, pain and teared (for myself) together. Thank you so much for your presence to have met you in Japanese study class and in the same project team during year1 sem1 then to the same major for the rest of the semesters. The best thing is you are staying in the north and the way home are always so cheerful. THANK YOU SO MUCH GRACE! ^^

Even though I have met some girls who think SUPER highly about themselves and despised me just because I am from a Chinese speaking family and polytechnic background, I still thank them for appearing in my uni life. They made me hate and love my uni life!!! Don know i should be happy or otherwise. Just really mixed emotions all over. Those girls really change my perceptions towards people who (assumes) they own a prestige life. Like seriously, these are not the only moments you can have in life men. Can i just scold them bitches for the last time please?? =,

I think i just did. HAHAHA!
Okay. I am going insane typing this post because I am just happy that I am so done with school now.

Other than meeting nasty and antsy people in school. I have meet some really nice people like CNM camp campers, BHBH7 and many passerby, just to many to name them here. But I know best in my heart who they are.

BHBH7.

Feelings of nostalgia when i was browsing through all the photos and to select one.

Life there was great and i could smell fresh air everyday when passing through patches of fresh green fields. I hope there will be such opportunities once again. ^^ 

CNM camp participants.

I was really nice meeting them all with different personalities and experiencing young again. Also, to thank Daryl so much for understanding the feelings too! ^^

CNM committees.

Thank you so much for the opportunities!!! You guys are also crazy people too!

And entertaining to my entrainment. HAHA!

UNI life will just be different if i did not take the first step out and see the others. Even though i have been whining and complaining uni sux, this is just the process and looking back I actually did enjoy certain moments.

All the late night work, last minute work, worrying for my english language to complete tons of 3k words essay which some are individual somemore. Are fun but really really torturing and draggy. Having to enter into a Arts faculty, I know it is totally not my forte. I told myself that I would want to learn something different from engineering and so Arts I went. Then majored in Sociology to mind-fuck my perceptions towards society. HAHAHA! To be honest, some modules are interesting like education, inequalities, childhood, aging society and a few others. They do borden my perpectives in life in all ways as i can say. School are fascinating enough.

So heres the thing, i am currently undergoing this transition of life now. Two next important transitions. Career and marriage. I always have a different thoughts towards marriage from the norms. The funny thing is the more I wan it, the more it wont come. So I can say that law of attraction does not work at ALL right??? HAHAHA! So I shall not speak more about marriage even though I do have 6 days more to decide if i really do have to settle down with this guy. Why hesitated you ask me? Because I am scared about the future and not the reason of I don like love him or s/he is not good or we are not match or so watever. A phobia....? If so i believe. haha!

Career. I do have a part-time job on hand now and my boss is converting me to a full-timer. I am grateful for that too! I can teach and do some admin/hr job. The best it is near my house and my former secondary school, how not to love it? Walkable distance, cheap food (neighbouring estates) and accessible to all amenities around. I am still looking around and waiting for responses from other industries too. =)

I guess I have summaries and fast forward my life events for the past 2.5 years. Haven been in the mood to do a proper post because school is driving me nuts. Like really nuts. I lost my lameness, entertainment skills and sociability. Now, I think they are recovering. I have been slightly much happier with my daily life now. I promise no more emo emo stuff. HAHAHA! *try too huh*

Thats all. Will blog about my bros wedding too.
Loves, wena.