Work Life Balance?

I have never shared anything about my current job which I am now into my third year at it already. I really enjoyed my duties but I do need to strike a well balance of work and life. Im human too and a mum of 2. I missed out a lot a lot on my #1 growing up and I do not want to miss out for my #2. 

I never felt so worn out and mentally depressed till now. A full time working mum and exclusive breastfeeding mum is not easy. Bosses and colleagues are very understand. Unfortunately, this unnecessary stress are created by others.

Even there are matters to handle, after working hours I will try my best to complete it. If things are restricted and limited, no matter how urgent it is I still couldnt get it done over the night. Even if I managed to complete it, what can the other party do over the night. They cant either.

My nights are now for my family.

I am a family women.

Family comes before my career. Of course, I do need my job to support my family.

Really really wish he they could understand my situation and not pester me onto matters that are not urgent and yet making it sounds very very urgent. #lovehaterelationship

Post Hiatus Update

It has been so long........

This space has been on a long hiatus for almost 2 years and going. A quick update, I have been so so busy with work life and family life ever. So it started off with work first. Got employed in mid of 2013 and was too tired everyday after work to squeeze brain juice into updating this space here. Neglected a almost 10 years old e-diary. Always giving myself excuses not to post anything. Then comes 2014, I became a mum and was trying to manage my life with a newborn - infant routine. Took me quire sometime to adjust with the lack of sleep and juggling with my work + the "staying with in-laws" thing.

It is taking a toll on me seriously. Both mentally and physically.

I have so so much to say yet now Im just staring on my screen wondering how and where should I get myself started.

My current status in 2016: 

Became mother of two. Unfortunately, I felt I have lost my elder child. To joke, simply put that I am just a surrogate mum. Eg, my elder only co-sleep with the grandparents. (seriously~~~~) So its the "staying with in-laws" thing again.

I need some expert advise for me badly and desperately! How do I discipline my toddler kid while staying with the in-laws.

Gonna lost my cool-ness over the kid because they spoiled him rather than teach him. They are creating very bad habits, which Im afraid it will be too late to reroute him. So with the second one out, there is no way the in-law can handle cause my elder is so sticky. Everything seems to be so bad situation right now. 

I don even have the say in my way and in-laws are just taking my elder one away from me EVER SINCE I DELIVERED!

"I desperately need some advise on how do i handle / discipline my kid when in-laws are around."

Okay. Once I start I could not stop. It has been a problem for almost 2 years and not resolve. Rather it escalated from bad to worse.

Summary for My 2014

Almost the end of another year again! Missed out my summary for last year. Hopefully I could blog this post without Bb Soh to bother me half way. (even though tyere is taking care of him most of the time)

1. Got married in Feb.

2. First Trip with Company to HK while I am about 7mths pregnant.

3. Very heavily pregnant @ 39 weeks

4. Bb Soh was born in June

5. 1st mth old with Papa and Mama

6. 2nd mth old with Ah ma.

7. My Birthday celebration with Bb Soh.

8. Bb Soh 3 mths old

9. 4th Mth old, feeding him chicken drumsticks.

10. 5 mths old Baby

11. 6mths. If you have realised, Bb Soh is not a very smiley baby unless if he finds you really entertaining and amusing.

12. Was invited to A's colleague's house for Xmas party. An event which I really enjoyed after so long.

13. Dad's 60th Bd celebrations!

14. KL trip for an event.

15. Teambuilding @ Bali.

A very quick summary of 2014, which I have been procrastinating to post for ages. Took a quick look over that last one year and there were several memorable events which I will remember for life but there are times when it was bad... so bad and wish that I did not went through. Nevertheless, Im glad that the negatives were over and positive to continue.

I wish in 2015:

- Bb Soh to be a very very happy and healthy baby!

- Better attitude and temper (it has been so bad lately)

- Career Progression

- Happier Life!

That is all I hope for in the year of Goat!

Loves, wena

Official

I have officially stop breastfeeding already!

Its really ironically weird that I am feeling sad and happy at the same time. Sad was I could not produce any more milk for Bb Soh and no more excuse for me not to drink. Whereas happy that I will not be dragging myself to pump every few hours. I am still glad that I am able to bf him for four months.  

Second Life

Today shall be my last visit to my gynae till I see her in the labour ward.

I am already in week 40 and there is still no signs of bb Soh coming out. Gets me worrying abit. I have been moving around a lot during my pregnancy and even exercise but the magic didnt work on me. =( I want a smooth delivery please! Its time to ask bb Soh to come out sooooooonnnn.

Till date, I have gained 15kg. Both mother and son are healthy. However, Im experiencing sore feets and tailbone when i shift myself. Body is getting heaviler and is aching like shit. It will be over very soon till then it will be lag if sleepless night. Haha! 

Both A and I are expecting Bb Soh anxiously. A life changing for our families and friends, definitely the both of us too. Well.... for me, I am really excited that someone important will be joining us this year which is sth that i have been waiting for. However, at the same time, someone who is so dearly to me has left me as well. I didnt even have the chance to walk her off on the last route. I hope she knows that im always her beloved grandchild. I really miss you, 阿媽。

Guess you are happy over the other side with 公公。Please blessed me and bb Soh to be safe and heathly and also painless if possible! Haha!

Loves, wena