I don know EVERYTHING!
This post will be emoing i agree. But after the end, i felt better.


I don know why im so emotionally not right recently
I don know why I had problems but yet they might be nonsenseical
I don know why when I feel sad i will keep it inside myself
I don know why I cannot control my emotions
I don know why Im feeling so tired




Everything just goes gone bad for me.
PPl don know that even some small actions will make me think why why and just why
Sometimes i will "TRY" to be optimistic
but ended up im disappointed.

WATS THE POINT WHEN PPL SAY TRY TO BE OPTIMISTIC?


I know they are trying to console and they did.
is a good thing




Im feeling tired and sick for somethings.
And it always goes back to the same old spot, things starts again
Im a person whom my facial expressions tell everything but
don try to look at it, cause sometimes it is wrong!

Ppl always say i looked stress but actually im not.
Looks unhappy, maybe yes maybe not.
Looks happy, most of the time (at times it might be fake)

Stop asking me to say them out when i don want.
If i wan to, i will. Don assume.
In fact, i myself assumed a lot! STUPID right... =,














One of my EBFF told me that i drift away from them.
Its the fact

I reply her that Im just tired.
And my heart sink to the bottom and tears just starts when i reply her
(See im too emotional right)

Not because im busy dating or watever.
I know how to plan my time, but Im seriously just tired
Emotionally tired

I had changed.





Watever it is, im happy. :)

OKay im bored!!!


holiday should be working, but im not! :(
Cant wait for sch to start soon!
Shall update my zoo trip. ^^

Went out in the morning to meet bros for lan. at clementi.
The weather was very wet and COLD!!!
I was shivering from clementi to raffles to marina square and
regretted for not bringing my jacket out.

Fortunate me, I had my lucky star with me! ^^


Finally met up with all my girls and joel for steamboat
And joel was late. Make us damn ps to wait for him to finish till he is full! XD

Thats why he is joel! =D


Went over to shaw tower, cause E and i brought fruits.
I need to digest something down..



I was playing with my stomach cause i look very bloated.

As if im pregnant worse is with that look! Maybe im just crazy thinking of pregnant.. HAHA!


YEAH! I really miss them! and really appreciate they make it.
Through is boring, you guys are still the best! ^^

I love this photo! =D

I wan to sat something... Joel is confuse with his post.
He got peace and at the same time trying to rock? XD!!!


Nice day! :D
I still have a few more entries to blog!!!
xxlovesxx

I want to say something because i have been keeping it inside myself for the past few days.
I didnt mean not to share it with my love but then i just don wan don like to irritate all my loves one around me. Same goes to me.. I'm just saying ar.
"you know wat i mean hor" :)




I have been mentioning this situation here for a few times already.
Gathering ppl for our small minor activities/gathering is really tough enough


And in the past i can proudly say that i will be the one to ask them out for gathering
and i had to stand in every each of their shoes to think
what they want
where they want to go
who they want to meet
when they can meet
and stuff.




Is really not an easy job to organize when everyone has different opinions
The worse is when one never reply or give excuses.
I don know is it excuses or reasons but from my point of view i see them all as excuses

I really treasure everyone but yet yet
some don even seems to appreciate what i had done.

Eventually, i slowly drift away and im trying not to care.
I wan to be bhb to say that i will always think of others likings before planning everything.
Still i can feel that ppl take it reluctantly for what i had did
some don see wats the story behind


So some find that since you are always first to contact me
then i shall be lazy.. and wait for you to ask me out instead, in the future too!

Wat if oneday i stop all this "stupid" things
i guess only 2 will message me ask me my whereabouts. (okay maybe 3 or 4)
I assume the rest don even care


You know im tired of everything.
This is not the first time i said it but i still trying my best to make an effort to have a small gathering as i don wan our friendship to just stop there you see.




NOTE: This post is just my point of view feelings.
I don know what you guys thinks on your side. Rememeber im a two sided viewer.



I'm not emoing her. Just pouring everything out.
AND I'm FEELING MUCH BETTER NOW!
^^




Next meet up friday.
One is not coming. Some will be late due to work.
xxlovesxx

KL Day3

Stop for toilet break at one shopping mall



And then lunch



HAHA!



Went to visit national palace and independance square
As usual.. I been there for the third time already. =D

Oh yea before that we visited Chocolate Beryl's factory
I'm not a chocolate fans but i did brought some special products.
One of it is the Chilli chocolate! Still haven try them yet.


Then check into hotel and dinner is on our own.

Walked down the street and ended up deciding to settle in this "zhi ca" restaurant.






Took me really long to decide wat to eat and finally had hokkien mee!
Yeap is different but really nice! The noodle taste like udon! Very qq :)





Went for some shopping trip and Sungai wang plaza first
and find our way to Times Square.

Second time i went there. The first i didnt get to see the indoor theme park
Now i do. Miss the chance cause left with only 50 rm that night.



Our hotel.



End of the last night!

xxlovexx